Eight Months, Loss, and Christmas

2.0 turned eight months old on Christmas eve. He’s pulling up on furniture and Gambit, our black Basenji mix, taking steps if we hold him up, and splashing like crazy when we give him baths. He doesn’t seem to be as verbose as mini Gwinn was at this age, but he is intensely physical. We love seeing him thrive and explore.

Christmas was bittersweet. If there were no children in our home, Captain Laser Pants and myself would have most likely forgone celebration. On December 19th we went to bed with three happy, healthy dogs. On December 20th we woke up and Lenny, our Beagle Corgi mix, couldn’t walk. After a vet visit we were dumbfounded and heartbroken as we saw him lose his ability to control his bladder. We lost Lenny on the 21st. A vet came to our home to give our little boy a comfortable passing and an end to his misery. There isn’t a waking hour that passes without him in my thoughts. We made a head stone for him, and put up pictures of him in the house, which has helped some, but my chest tightens and my stomach hurts every time I think of him for more than a minute. We miss you so much, Lenny Lou.

Our kids had a great Christmas. We enjoyed our family time. CLP worked a lot on our fence, and though I hate seeing him work so hard alone, seeing the progress he’s made is exciting. Soon Gambit and Jovee can run outside at their leisure and the boys can play without risk of wandering into the seven+ acres of woods next to our house.

In the next few weeks I hope to be able to work out, not the way I used to, but at least something. The outlet is just what I need to relax, focus, and channel my energy. In that same thought, I think that’s my “resolution” for the next year: relax. The whole reason I’ve been going to physical therapy, the reason I can’t work out, why I feel the way I do- I can’t relax. That’s something that has to change.

Hopefully you’ve all had a wonderful holiday and are looking to start a fresh new year with your loved ones.

Happy Christmas and New Year, all.


About mombieconfessions

I am a sarcastic mom, tried and true INTJ, my DISC profile has a high D and C with low I and S, and I'm a quirky geek (love me some Star Wars, BSG, Firefly, Dr, Who and comic books!). When I grow up I want to be an Amazon warrior with super powers and an awesome costume. Music and literature are passions, cooking and baking are hobbies, and writing a blog (such as this one) is both a cathartic release and documentation of the growth of my family and myself. View all posts by mombieconfessions

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